This one has been sitting in my drafts for over a few months now, okay actually longer like Since July. I tried keeping a daily journal but that doesn't work for me. I guess I am more of a random writer if something or someone inspires me I write. I don't call myself a writer, I let my pen become my therapist it's cheaper and more rewarding. I am horrible with my grammar. So all you proofreaders out there I've just made your day, go at it 🙌🏻
While I sit here in my cozy chair, coffee in hand in the early morning hours I am enjoying watching the Hummingbirds eat from their nectar feeder.
It's funny how life will take you back to a moment in time that you'd rather not re-visit because the pain was so unbearable yet in doing so You realize that the anguish you once experienced helped develop your character into becoming stronger and much more wiser, Well at least I would like to think so, (there are days where I am looking for my iPhone while I'm talking on it 🙄) I had gone through a season of challenging difficulties, or perhaps it was some poor choices I had made in my life, regardless the question to ask myself is, Did I learn from it?
Now looking back in that season of my life I realize those circumstances had brought me closer to God and with myself.
The Hummingbird is a symbol and a big reminder to me to remember and reflect back to the progress and growth I have made in my life.
No matter what we are going through or how tough life gets, our attitude is 100% important in how we handle it. I can decide as soon as I lift my head off the pillow in the morning I am going to have a good day or I can choose to have a bad one. I know it's easier said then done. Believe me I get it I've been there. I may struggle in certain areas of my life but I know that THROUGH it all I will make it and I will go on and so will you.
This card was given to me about 15 years ago from my mom I put it in a frame and perched it in my office window. She gave it to me when I was going through a difficult time in my life and it has always helped to remind me that if God can take me through one storm he will get me through another.
GOD Said "Go On Don't Quit"
Your work is not in vain
I'll always go with you
to strengthen and sustain
I said GOD I'm convinced
That I don't walk alone
But there are days
when I lack courage to go on
GOD said "GO and DON'T QUIT"
Remember I love you
VICTORY is just ahead
and I WILL see YOU THROUGH
YOU CAN MAKE IT!
That brings me to the scripture in Psalms 23:4 it reads "Even though I walk THROUGH the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
A friend of the past, shared this scripture from the "Holy Bible" with me one day and he said " even THOUGH we walk through the valley, no matter what is going on around us or how chaotic it can become, we GO THROUGH!
On my way home that day driving down the freeway I reflected back to what he had said to me and how true it was. We keep moving forward, it might be small moves we take or huge ones. That small move can be just getting up out of bed showering and brushing your teeth that day and that's okay you did it ☺️✅🙋🏻 big high five to you! Or it could be packing up and moving across the state. Regardless of the size it's the fact that we move forward, we keep on keeping on no matter how strong the storm, the hill we climb or the mountains We have too we need too, not only for ourselves but for our loved ones as well. Change and growth are necessary. It's easier to be uncomfortable for a time then to stay miserable and the same.
That little nugget of information Psalms 23:4 has been Gold to me and has helped me in so many circumstances.
A couple years ago I had started to write a book and decided to put it aside for now, there will be a time when I'll pick it back up and continue to write. One day I hope to share some of those difficulties I have gone through but not now, I'm not ready. I think I quit writing because when I went back into my past I found myself re-living those moments of pain and I don't like to dwell in the past, I like to heal and learn from it and move on. But I guess sometimes we need to go back and re-visit so it can help us to move forward it's all part of the healing process. It's not easy for me opening up to just anyone to pour my heart out because that requires me to trust and go deep and become vulnerable and I don't like doing that. I know it's my responsibility to share some of my experiences because if I can help at least one person from saving themselves from hardships and poor choices I've made, I know that I have not lived my life in vain.
Everything is in Gods timing. Wait for it. When the timings right you'll know it, it comes with peace. Learn to listen to your inner voice. If you should fall down its okay get back up its a new day to make it a better one. Your Victory is just ahead, Don't quit! 💪🏻💕
UPDATE: July 21st-2016 A hummingbird had flew into our home flying up into the skylight (not being able to reach him to save him) he struggled the rest of the evening until dark fluttering his little wings trying to escape. I went to bed hoping I would find him alive the next morning my cats never took their eyes off of him sitting there licking their lips. It crossed my mind the Hummingbird could perhaps be their breakfast or midnight snack.
As I woke in the morning I eagerly hopped out of bed it was still dark out and as I came downstairs I quietly stood there for a moment listening for The sounds of his wings fluttering. I flipped the light switch on looked around the living room for the Hummingbird but did not see him, I knew he had to be sleeping somewhere because I did not see any signs of feathers, that told me he was still alive.
As the morning sun rose and the light filled the room I heard the wings of struggle once again I looked up and he was in the living room Skylight desperately again seeking his way to freedom.
I found myself talking and pleading with this little fella to please come down so I could save him and set him free. Our skylight is in a high cathedral ceiling putting up a ladder is not within reaching.
Why is it they the birdies do not listen hahahaha and why do I find myself talking to a bird at wee hours of the morning? ( What a nutcase) I was wondering to myself how many times have I been in that same situation as the hummingbird desperately trying to escape from a situation and not asking for help when I needed it . Perhaps it's pride or not wanting to bother others. I sat there praying that this little Hummingbird would get tired of the struggle and fly down so I could set him free. By Almighty God that little bird , out of the blue flew down into the bay view window sitting perfectly still, his little heart looked like it was going to beat out of his chest, his breathing was rapid and he looked exhausted. I quickly but quietly got up from my chair, grabbed the blanket from the couch next to me and threw it over my little friend. I rushed outside not wanting to smother him. As I opened up the blanket the Hummingbird just Laid there not moving, Tears started welling up in my eyes and I whispered "OH NO" I smothered him, feeling horrible and apologizing to him I began to pet him rubbing his little chest with my index finger and as i did he sat up and flew off. I suppose he was playing dead out of fear. Boy was I ever so delighted to see him fly off, be free I said! It was a enlightening moment and I was so happy and thankful for God's answered prayer. I think too my joy was so overwhelming because of the time I had tried to nurse the Dove bird back to health that had been shot, she didn't survive so setting this Hummingbird bird free gave me much happiness 💕☺️
I noticed throughout the last 15 years of my life the hummingbird has been a frequent visitor in my life.
I believe God Sends us messages and signs out of the blue and in a timely matter! Change
The fluttering wings of the hummingbird move in the pattern of an infinity symbol - further solidifying their symbolism of eternity, continuity, and infinity. ... The prime message of the hummingbird animal totem is: "The sweetest nectar is within!"
Fun, Inspiring others, Full of energy Unstoppable She's Raya Al-Hashmi on Assignment in Portsmouth New Hampshire
All Photos & copyright of Raya Al-Hashmi Photographer Raya on Assignment
I discovered Raya as she photographed & interviewed my son during his stay in Portsmouth New Hampshire.
Raya is a photographer and Photojournalist, the founder & head of "People in Portsmouth which is a photography project ran by @rayaonassignment documenting the inhabitants of Portsmouth, NH.
I instantly became interested in this young energetic woman, her passion, leadership skills, drive and energy ignited me to want to know more about her. I asked if she would let me interview her and publish her on my blog, The norm for me is when asking someone of importance 85% of the time I never hear back from them but not Raya, she responded in a timely manner and was so happy that I had asked. Gratitude Miss Raya, Thank you.
While interviewing her I had found out we both have a few things in common. We love getting behind the lens, interviewing people and the same photojournalist"Bill Cunningham "A well known Fashion Journalist /street Photographer. As I was preparing and wrapping up my interview for publishing Raya started producing videos . take a look at her first one
"I love through the lens"
K: : What age did you take up photography and what inspired you to do so?
R: At the age of 16 I began my journey in photography my good friend introduced me to this craft. I remember so vividly laying on the wide plank wooden floors in our lake cabin in Barrington, NH and turning the camera lens on myself. I remember thinking this is a powerful tool, this can show people that they are beautiful, this is sort of like science- it can't be proven wrong. I wanted to show people that they are beautiful, especially those who don't see it.
K: What lead you into street interviews for Portsmouth Hampshire ?
R: The desire to hear, document, and share authentic moments and memories from those who inhabit this community. The philosophy that we are a lot less different than we may believe we are. That by knowing more realness about our community we start to be a little more compassionate with ourselves and others.
K: Did you ever have a fear or nervousness to go out into the streets of the city and people to take their photo and interview them? And if yes how did you overcome it?
R: Absolutely, I believe people can sense when we have fear or are coming from a place of being uncomfortable or inauthentic. When this is the case it becomes hard to have people open up to us so those are the days I would maybe find something else to do. Also, that fear or nervousness can help fuel us to do something brilliant.
K: Most memorable assignment and why?
R: When my heart and mind are aligned while I am doing my craft- those are the most memorable assignments.
K: Favorite food?
R: Fattoush Salad
K: Anything on your bucket list you haven't done yet?
R: I do not have a bucket list although I do have a vision board. I make a new one after the previous one has become reality.
K: What words of wisdom would you give to inspire our readers?
R: Ask those who are close to you how you can continue to support them.
I try to ask anyone often what I can do to continue to support them. This is huge. Try it and see how it feels for yourself and others.
K: Your favorite photographer?
R: I enjoy the work of Brandon Stanton, Bill Cunningham, and anyone who shares the magic of capturing moments.
K: That one person who is your hero and has inspired you and why
R: My inner child because she laughs and loves freely.
K: If you could spend one day with someone, who would that be and why?
R: National Geographic Alexandra Boulat- she passed away in 2007 and covered many situations regarding war and turmoil in the Middle East when she worked with National Geographic. I would like to understand her motivation behind her assignments and how to process what we see.
K: Is there anything that you want our readers to know about you that we haven't covered?
R: I don’t just take pictures for fun. It is my passion, my craft, my art, my life, my why. This is something that physically I feel in my body that makes it so clear this is the type of work I need to be doing.
K: If you could be a Super Hero for the day which character would it be and why?
R:My best self. That's the super hero I'd like to be because I would operate on a 100% honest and pure level. So many amazing things could get accomplished in this world if we all operated from this place.
K: What are you most thankful for in life
R: Each being.
Raya is unstoppable unafraid and genuine, A girl after my own heart. Keep on smiling and inspiring us Miss Raya :) Thank you so much for allowing me to interview you. I have been inspired, it's women like you that put fire under us igniting our passions and dreams giving us hope that we too can accomplish what we set out to do. Fear is a huge player that can stop us in our tracks trying to paralyze us into thinking we are not worthy. Continue to trail blaze my friend. Continue to be the lovely soul that you are.