This one has been sitting in my drafts for over a few months now, okay actually longer like Since July. I tried keeping a daily journal but that doesn't work for me. I guess I am more of a random writer if something or someone inspires me I write. I don't call myself a writer, I let my pen become my therapist it's cheaper and more rewarding. I am horrible with my grammar. So all you proofreaders out there I've just made your day, go at it 🙌🏻
While I sit here in my cozy chair, coffee in hand in the early morning hours I am enjoying watching the Hummingbirds eat from their nectar feeder.
It's funny how life will take you back to a moment in time that you'd rather not re-visit because the pain was so unbearable yet in doing so You realize that the anguish you once experienced helped develop your character into becoming stronger and much more wiser, Well at least I would like to think so, (there are days where I am looking for my iPhone while I'm talking on it 🙄) I had gone through a season of challenging difficulties, or perhaps it was some poor choices I had made in my life, regardless the question to ask myself is, Did I learn from it?
Now looking back in that season of my life I realize those circumstances had brought me closer to God and with myself.
The Hummingbird is a symbol and a big reminder to me to remember and reflect back to the progress and growth I have made in my life.
No matter what we are going through or how tough life gets, our attitude is 100% important in how we handle it. I can decide as soon as I lift my head off the pillow in the morning I am going to have a good day or I can choose to have a bad one. I know it's easier said then done. Believe me I get it I've been there. I may struggle in certain areas of my life but I know that THROUGH it all I will make it and I will go on and so will you.
This card was given to me about 15 years ago from my mom I put it in a frame and perched it in my office window. She gave it to me when I was going through a difficult time in my life and it has always helped to remind me that if God can take me through one storm he will get me through another.
GOD Said "Go On Don't Quit"
Your work is not in vain
I'll always go with you
to strengthen and sustain
I said GOD I'm convinced
That I don't walk alone
But there are days
when I lack courage to go on
GOD said "GO and DON'T QUIT"
Remember I love you
VICTORY is just ahead
and I WILL see YOU THROUGH
YOU CAN MAKE IT!
That brings me to the scripture in Psalms 23:4 it reads "Even though I walk THROUGH the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
A friend of the past, shared this scripture from the "Holy Bible" with me one day and he said " even THOUGH we walk through the valley, no matter what is going on around us or how chaotic it can become, we GO THROUGH!
On my way home that day driving down the freeway I reflected back to what he had said to me and how true it was. We keep moving forward, it might be small moves we take or huge ones. That small move can be just getting up out of bed showering and brushing your teeth that day and that's okay you did it ☺️✅🙋🏻 big high five to you! Or it could be packing up and moving across the state. Regardless of the size it's the fact that we move forward, we keep on keeping on no matter how strong the storm, the hill we climb or the mountains We have too we need too, not only for ourselves but for our loved ones as well. Change and growth are necessary. It's easier to be uncomfortable for a time then to stay miserable and the same.
That little nugget of information Psalms 23:4 has been Gold to me and has helped me in so many circumstances.
A couple years ago I had started to write a book and decided to put it aside for now, there will be a time when I'll pick it back up and continue to write. One day I hope to share some of those difficulties I have gone through but not now, I'm not ready. I think I quit writing because when I went back into my past I found myself re-living those moments of pain and I don't like to dwell in the past, I like to heal and learn from it and move on. But I guess sometimes we need to go back and re-visit so it can help us to move forward it's all part of the healing process. It's not easy for me opening up to just anyone to pour my heart out because that requires me to trust and go deep and become vulnerable and I don't like doing that. I know it's my responsibility to share some of my experiences because if I can help at least one person from saving themselves from hardships and poor choices I've made, I know that I have not lived my life in vain.
Everything is in Gods timing. Wait for it. When the timings right you'll know it, it comes with peace. Learn to listen to your inner voice. If you should fall down its okay get back up its a new day to make it a better one. Your Victory is just ahead, Don't quit! 💪🏻💕
UPDATE: July 21st-2016 A hummingbird had flew into our home flying up into the skylight (not being able to reach him to save him) he struggled the rest of the evening until dark fluttering his little wings trying to escape. I went to bed hoping I would find him alive the next morning my cats never took their eyes off of him sitting there licking their lips. It crossed my mind the Hummingbird could perhaps be their breakfast or midnight snack.
As I woke in the morning I eagerly hopped out of bed it was still dark out and as I came downstairs I quietly stood there for a moment listening for The sounds of his wings fluttering. I flipped the light switch on looked around the living room for the Hummingbird but did not see him, I knew he had to be sleeping somewhere because I did not see any signs of feathers, that told me he was still alive.
As the morning sun rose and the light filled the room I heard the wings of struggle once again I looked up and he was in the living room Skylight desperately again seeking his way to freedom.
I found myself talking and pleading with this little fella to please come down so I could save him and set him free. Our skylight is in a high cathedral ceiling putting up a ladder is not within reaching.
Why is it they the birdies do not listen hahahaha and why do I find myself talking to a bird at wee hours of the morning? ( What a nutcase) I was wondering to myself how many times have I been in that same situation as the hummingbird desperately trying to escape from a situation and not asking for help when I needed it . Perhaps it's pride or not wanting to bother others. I sat there praying that this little Hummingbird would get tired of the struggle and fly down so I could set him free. By Almighty God that little bird , out of the blue flew down into the bay view window sitting perfectly still, his little heart looked like it was going to beat out of his chest, his breathing was rapid and he looked exhausted. I quickly but quietly got up from my chair, grabbed the blanket from the couch next to me and threw it over my little friend. I rushed outside not wanting to smother him. As I opened up the blanket the Hummingbird just Laid there not moving, Tears started welling up in my eyes and I whispered "OH NO" I smothered him, feeling horrible and apologizing to him I began to pet him rubbing his little chest with my index finger and as i did he sat up and flew off. I suppose he was playing dead out of fear. Boy was I ever so delighted to see him fly off, be free I said! It was a enlightening moment and I was so happy and thankful for God's answered prayer. I think too my joy was so overwhelming because of the time I had tried to nurse the Dove bird back to health that had been shot, she didn't survive so setting this Hummingbird bird free gave me much happiness 💕☺️
I noticed throughout the last 15 years of my life the hummingbird has been a frequent visitor in my life.
I believe God Sends us messages and signs out of the blue and in a timely matter! Change
The fluttering wings of the hummingbird move in the pattern of an infinity symbol - further solidifying their symbolism of eternity, continuity, and infinity. ... The prime message of the hummingbird animal totem is: "The sweetest nectar is within!"